Like Ariana and Melissa, it's that I never get a break, and also that while I'm dealing with this and not getting any breaks I have to make my diabetes fit into a world that doesn't know or care what it is like to live with a chronic illness.
I am always diabetic, no matter what else might happen. If I am tired and just want to go to bed but I'm low, or my pump runs out of insulin, I have to take care of the diabetes before I can go to sleep. If I want to wear an outfit with no pockets, I have to figure out where the pump goes. If I'm starving and just want to eat everything in sight, I have to count carbs, test, bolus, the whole shebang. And if I ever decide to ignore diabetes and just do what I want, the consequences are serious.
Thanks for sharing, everone. It''s really nice to know that there are others out there who feel the same way.