Hi guys! I’m a relatively new member here, though I’ve had diabetes for almost 10 years. I was diagnosed in 5th grade, and within a few years I was the primary caretaker for my diabetes management. I’ve never quite been able to escape the idea that my diabetes is a burden, and so I’ve pushed it out of sight and out of mind from the people around me. Now I’m a junior in college and I’ve created an environment where I’m really the only one who knows how to take care of my diabetes (even though it feels like I’m guessing most of the time). I know that this is pretty normal though. Through high school and during my first two years of college I let my control slip a lot. Especially in college there were periods where I would almost ignore that I had diabetes all together. Recently though I’ve been putting much more effort in. I’m on a cgm, and my A1c has reached 6.7. I’m feeling better overall obviously, but there are some new issues now. I moniter my cgm almost obsessively and watching my bg going up and down constantly drives me absolutely crazy. My blood sugar never seem to want to cooperate. I tend to overcorrect due to a fear of being high. The biggest thing is that the amount of mental energy I’m putting on to control is leaving me in a state of near constant burn out. I’ve noticed that as I put more time and energy into control my grades slip. I don’t have enough room in my head to be a good diabetic and a good student. I used to get deans list consistently- now I’m failing classes. I don’t have enough energy left over to do things I need to be doing. Also, now that my bgs are regularly in a healthy range I feel pretty awful when I’m high or low, whereas I used to function fine. How do you balance everything? I don’t have enough brains or energy to keep up with everything.
TL;DR as my A1c gets lower so does my gpa- help.