I am so sorry for your experiences. As a parent of a T1D, I know that this is not a disease to be managed alone. I would suggest reaching out to your local JDRF chapter. They can offer you healing, help, and hope. Networking with others dealing with the disease certainly adds comfort. Another great source of healing, help, and hope is through the church. I don’t know your level of faith, but please know that you have never been alone in your journey, God is with you. The church can be a great place to find a mentor. Perhaps you could join a Sunday school class. The small group setting would allow you to emerge from seclusion without being overwhelmed. He welcomes you into his house “as you are” broken and weary. I wish you all the best.