life is what it is. If I waited around for the perfect moment Id’d spend my life waiting… if I am waiting for a time when “all this” settles down… then I am in for an even longer wait.
since life is what it is, then the pressure comes from how you look at it. (you can’t change the world, you can change how you feel about it). I suffered many years from depression and had issues with anxiety, these things get better with therapy and when you are open to talking bout it.
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we have to deal with an incurable, chronic disease. taking care of diabetes is painful and irritating. the only reward for doing a perfect job is we get to feel normal for a little while, while the penalty for ignoring diabetes or denial can be devastating. We are dealing with it is 24X7 with no breaks, no vacations, and no time off for good behavior. it can wreck your brain if you spend your days wishing you never got diabetes or praying it would go away, or waiting for that cure. there is no normal life, there is no dress rehearsal, this is really all we have. I can promise you that it is possible to find happiness, serenity, compassion, strength, and hope, but it can take a lot of work and require physical and emotional growth.
i’ve been doing this since 1979, I am 38 years into a life sentence with no chance of parole, and if I think about it ONLY in that way, then I am doomed to depression. the best place for me to be is in a place where I feel like I can help other people. this can be in great things or in tiny things. try a fundraiser, try a diabetes walk, run, or ride. get involved with advocacy, be a counselor at a diabetes camp for kids, study biomedical research or engineering and cure it, whatever, but if I am doing something, anything really, then I feel better. if you don’t believe me then prove me wrong. try to do something and tell me if it’s better or worse after.