Had a horribly scary experience tonight that had made me so angry/freaked out/scared/sad that I don't even know what to do about it. It's comforting to me to know that all of us are dealing with the same things (sorta).... so here goes:
I went off my insulin pump about 8 months ago for financial reasons. (I'm one of that unfortunate majority with the sneaky mortgage that exploded.. sigh). Suffice to say, a foreclosure later, I am still struggling to dig myself out of that hole. Ok, we all make mistakes. I get it. I had seen an Endo at the hospital near my old house maybe 9 months ago and told him that I was terrified of not being on the pump, and that he needed to help me get switched over to a Lantus/Novolog routine pronto. Well, he was upset to say the least. 'I should try to stay on the pump', 'there are financial assistance groups'.. etc. Well, I contacted by phone or email EVERY SINGLE ONE of those groups.. and big surprise, lots of people are in my same situation and none of them were accepting any more applications for assistance. So I go onto Lantus and Novolog... I have the prescriptions refilled a few times... I STILL can't afford to go in and drop the couple hundred dollars that it costs to have bloodwork, so tonight.. when I called to refill my Lantus prescription, Walgreens told me that this IDIOT Endo's office had called last week and cancelled the prescription because I hadn't been in to see him in a while.
Ok, so I understand that they want me to come in... THEY don't understand what a stretch that is for me right now... so as a consequence, it's ok for them to take away my ability to buy insulin?!?!?! (even though I still had refills last time I checked?!!?) I feel like some kinda junkie that is begging at Walgreens for something as essential to my STAYING ALIVE as air is to them. I wonder if someone denied them water for a few days, if they'd be able to understand how this feels!!!
Luckily, I cried my way to urgent care and begged for a temporary prescription for Lantus so that I can live until I can find an Endo where I live now. I am truly SICK to my stomach thinking about what happened. So, somewhere along the line, it became ok to let someone die because they are having trouble making co-pays? I've ALWAYS been able to pay for the insulin.
Sorry for the vent. I suppose I will spend tomorrow on the phone with the offending Endo's office hollering until I am blue in the face. And they won't care. And life goes on. And it's my birthday tomorrow. pfffff...