Fist of all, thank you for reading. I just hit my 10 year anniversary this month of being diagnosed with T1. I was 26, now 36. Though I have always had a certain level of anxiety about the disease, it has for some reason really been giving me trouble the last 2-3 months.
I guess for the most part I (think) I have done “ok” with my diabetes. Most A1c are 6-7, but I used to deal with a lot of lows, I had 1 seizure and 2 car accidents bc of dangerous low blood sugar. My biggest fear is dealing with diabetic problems later in life. Things like constant pain, neuropathy. Hence, I would rather lean of the low side of my blood sugars. My thoughts were that if I go low, I can just grab a juice box and get it back up pretty quickly, but if I go high, it’s injection and waiting for sugar to stabilize and a general longer time period being high. However one issue I struggle with is night time highs. I work in a restaurant and getting done late, being hungry and not being able to regulate enough before sleeping ending with highs in the 300s or worse occasionally for a few hours overnight until I can correct in am.
So that’s me, I just got on the freestyle libre and it does give me better perspective. I used the deacon for a few years but had difficulty affording it. I am always trying to be better but as we all know, it doesn’t go away and we all struggle with it, and have weak moments.
So I guess the reason I bring this up, is multi reasoned, I get really nervous that any time I get a tingle in my toes or foot, that the “end is near”. And I just don’t know how to get over it, there are times I feel paralyzed by the fear of something becoming a permanent issue. How do you all deal with this? How do you know if something is a big deal? Or maybe you just slept weird and it goes away. For those of you that do have complications, how do you deal with it, emotionally, physically?
Thank you for reading and hopefully responding, I appreciate any advice.