I go through stages of "rebellious eating" myself. Do you not eat because you don't want to gain any weight? or because you are mad that you have to eat? Oh I just saw you had written that.
I have also gotten really pissed off at the fact that I couldn't just skip meals without any consquences of having a low blood sugar, it actually used to drive me insane. Not that you should skip meals but, if I didnt feel like eating I hated the fact that I had to, especially if my blood sugar is running on the lower side and if I don't I will have a low. It is a really annoying cycle.
Right now I am actually on the Jenny Craig diet because I am forcing myself how to eat better and I wasnt doing well on my own and my personal diabetes nutritionist gave me a 1600 diet but she wouldnt tell me the foods to eat. I needed a structured diet to follow that would get me on track so I can get a better a1c
I needed to add more milks, veggies etc. into my diet because I wasn't having enough and at my last doc visit they told me I was deficient in Vitamin D. The program I am on is a 1500 calorie diet. I do have to eat three of the jenny craig prepared meals for a while until i hit my goal weight, but, they make you add your own foods to it as well so this is how it goes:
breakfast: Jenny craig meal plus 1 fruit, 1 cup of non fat milk
snack: 1 milk product, 1 fruit
lunch: Jenny craig meal plus a salad
snack: 6 oz nonfat yogurt, prepacked popcorn
Dinner: Jenny craig meal, plus 1.5 cups of vegtables, 1 tsp of margarine
snack: 1 fruit, 1 cup of raw veggies
The moral of the story is that I am starting to feeling much better and have more energy and yes I feel like I am forcing food down my throat but, they are foods from all the major food groups and it is helping my blood sugars DRAMATICALLY. My blood meter has an average of 134 in 7 days, with 50 readings logged in. This is amazing! So if I have to force it down for a couple of weeks I will get into a routine and it will be like picking up the blood meter or brushing my teeth!
Your mind plays a lot of tricks on you and you can talk yourself into feeling a certain way. That happend to me. So now I am trying to focus on being healthy and eating right.