First of all, Jesse, what you’re going through and experiencing right now emotionally is totally valid, normal, and legitimate. You’ve just been given a really shitty diagnosis that is going to change your life. You’ll have some new stuff on your plate that you have to deal with all the time, and the emotional side effects can really suck.
That being said, your life will absolutely NOT revolve around taking your medicine, checking blood sugar, and going to the doctor. You’ll have to be aware of your new friend, but you can live however you want to live. My diabetes has not kept me from doing anything I wanted to do. Playing sports, hiking, swimming, backpacking in remote parts of Asia for months. If you want to do something you first set a goal, map out the steps you need to achieve it, and work out a plan.
Right now, you want to figure out how to be active without your sugars dropping. This is going to be different for everyone, so it will take some experimentation on your part to get it right. And know that as your “honeymoon phase” continues and eventually ends (you can look up that term if you’re unfamiliar with it) the way you respond to insulin can change. But, what I have to do for certain types of exercise is shut off my basal (I’m on a pump–are you?) and eat about 10g of carbohydrates (I choose something like a granola bar or some dried fruit) every hour to keep my blood sugar in a good place. It took me a while to figure that out and I ended up with some pretty nasty lows for a while that can be scary. I am not a doctor, and you should consult a specialist with these questions. But, what I would do personally is about 15 minutes before “getting active,” test my BG and if it’s below 130 eat about 10g of carbs without insulin. Then test my blood sugar 30 minutes into activity and if my blood sugar is below 130, I would eat another 10g, and keep testing every 30-60 minutes and if I’m dropping at all, continue taking 10g carbs and do that for about an hour post-activity.
The thing to remember is, diabetes is manageable. The key is not to let it frustrate you to the point of making decisions based on emotion. It’s a numbers game. So, when you are getting frustrated, gather all your data (whatever you have: blood sugars, CGM data, bolus amounts, carb amounts, etc.) and make decisions based on the numbers, because that’s the truth!
I’m 25 and was diagnosed at 14. I still have times I get overwhelmed, unmotivated, sad, depressed, and all kinds of negative emotions because of my diabetes. It happens and that’s okay. You will soon get to the point where most of your diabetes management is in the back of your head and you don’t even have to think about it. It gets easier with time. You got this!