I have read your above comments very carefully as usual, but this time, I have gone through it twice more than that, as to figure out what might be best possible remedial tips which may truly start working for you, despite I am not a healthcare professional rather a diabetic since 2002, but I feel comfortable when suggesting few tips carefully from life experiences & observations. as all of us here are sailing in the same ship, so I mean to tell that perhaps diabetics may help each other themselves more effectively.
From your above extract, couple of things at the first place:
1 - Start believing that you are TID without your own fault. Just try it!!! (at least for few weeks please & see the result)
2- Positive aspect based on your comments reflects that you have been doing well since 7 years, so you are quite determined & already have strong will power as well.
3- Another favorable thing for you is, you have caring family members,close friends & love ones around you.
Based on my assessment (may be wrong or partially incorrect please), I can see 2 things which have been causing you uncomfortable.
1- Willingness to keep it secret.
2- Sometime your close one’s / love ones do not understand you properly, in a way, you need to be.
Interestingly both of the above, (if these are correct & valid), may be resolved by following below tips:
1- If you have accepted it mentally & whole heartedly then, please not to be afraid of getting it knowing by others. Because millions of have it all alone in US only apart from other part of the globe. Believe me, things have been changed since past many years even for the last few decades, people around generally don’t take it as a disability, after getting knowing about T1D of someone. Even most of them will not think about much more beyond TID & not more than even for few seconds, that it is the disorder in which people have to take injections & relevant stuff & like that, it is really we are, who generally & most of us, just start thinking at our own, that, what will people thing about my TID? will they take it in this way or that way? while in reality, people around, will not be even interested or bothered to think about all of these stuff, really!!!
As regards your pump wearing. Please take it immediately & don’t let it go please for the sake of others. You & your life are precious, regardless of the opinions of the others. I may suggest lightly (in a requesting note), that try to start it taking lightly without first thinking that, Oh, it has been disclosed to someone? if it is there then it is! so what?
You may think about & consider that millions /billions have been wearing glasses/contact lenses for the eye-sight disorder since past so many decades, so what? should they get off glasses only for the reason that glasses/ lenses may be known to others? Similarly, millions wear hearing aid device for hearing disorder. Other examples may be cited please, but I think my objective have done.
Unlike above examples,Only difference is that site of the pump located mostly there, where it is not visible easily, that’s why it catches the eyes of the others quickly & further it is relatively new in culture, which will take the time to become usual as like glasses & hearing aid devices & I am sure that after few years ahead, people will not ask you about it. Another possible remedy is to remain calm, when you have been again asked for the same, take a delay in react, just tell them, it is alike glasses for eye-sight correction or hearing aid device for hearing disorder & likewise, I am wearing it to correct my insulin disorder. Try not to be too short or too long in explaining it please. Gradually, you will see that frequency of asking will go down as the people around you to whom you have been seeing frequently / regularly will eventually know & will stop asking.
As regards extending sympathies by others, just follow a simple rule, we can’t change everyone or many ones, but yes, we do modify our self to handle such situations more effectively. In my opinion, just think, that it is a formal cultural tradition & nothing serious in that, a way which have been in place for centuries, like, what to say to a close one/ friend? when you heard some unpleasant news about someone in his/her family? Surely, we have certain words/sentences to say in that scenario according to the situation. Same/similar have been applicable to TID as well. After all, no body can greet or say congrats to anyone after getting knowing of his/her T1D. For example,
One thing is quite important, you feel sometime broken, yes, it is a reality, because everyone having TID have to take it burden around the clock without any break. There is no Sunday in the line of TID. So, it is like a feeling that someone get too tired after a day long hectic job & returned home in a mood, not to go again on tomorrow, but in reality it doesn’t happen in more than 99% cases. Similarly, these burdens make us tired, more tired, sometime to a level of frustration & up to an extent of giving it up, but we have to re-build our passion again & again. Best example is you as well, that, despite all happenings you have been doing well for last few years, which means, you have spirit, courage & passion all the time, only need to get it refreshed time & again to keep doing well & keep going!!!
As regards the problem of caring /understanding by friends/love ones, it is quite normal please. Actually no one can have the same or good frame of mind all the times. So, it does happens. Try not to think about these things again & again, and try to make you believe that all these are normal & nothing wrong in that, provided if you are going well with your numbers.
Yes, off-course, you may choose to keep posting here, sharing here & giving feedbacks here which may help you a lot!!
Since, I have seen that this forum is superb to discuss anything about T1D & its associated things.
GOOD LUCK & STAY BLESSED!!!
(Lahore 33C, 1322 Hours)