hi Tina @countrymom71,
I was diagnosed at 13. Right after diagnosis I felt great for 2 reasons: 1) about 2 weeks earlier I was convinced I was not going to live. and 2)whatever was wrong with me had a name and a strategy.
it was in the weeks after that I grew angry for a million reasons - not the least of which were the feelings of being singled out and punished, that my peers did not have to do what I now had to do forever, shots testing carb counting, etc.
I do get it, he’s your baby and there is a thing in front of you that you can’t change. You can’t take away the pain, you can’t fix him to the way he was before. He’ll be “sick” forever. This is a huge change for you and a huge loss for him as well.
Even at 14, he’s watching you. If you are scared or pessimistic it says a lot about your reaction to his illness. If you are emotionally solid, unafraid of the future, willing to deal with the painful stuff and adapt to the new “normal” it will go a long way in his acceptance of the new deal.
blood sugar is like looking at the speedometer in your car. it just gives you information. if you’re low, eat carbs, if you’re high combinations of water exercise and insulin will bring it down. there is no such thing as perfect. “in-range” blood sugar is like trying to throw a quarter into a shot glass 30 feet away. blood sugar is not a conviction, it is not a judgement on you or your son. There is no shame in it.
there’s a bunch of us here with t1 for decades. I hope they chime in as well. I hope you have a great CDE and a endo you can count on. you are stronger than you think you are. this will become more routine in the years to come. please let us know how you are doing or reach out anytime you feel overwhelmed. we are rooting for you.