I know it’s overwhelming at first. Like, seriously overwhelming. I was diagnosed 2 years ago at age 28. So I really do understand. And yeah, I cried in both the grocery store and the pharmacy. But I swear it gets better. There is so much to process at first, but over time you will get it.
When you’re ready, I’d recommend checking out the Beyond Type 1 site at https://beyondtype1.org/
They post a lot about active lifestyles with type 1, and have lots of perspectives from athletes. You’re going to have to re-learn some things, but with good advice from your doctor and a lot of reading, it’s completely possible for you to live the active life you want.
As for test strips, there have been some good suggestions here. I just wanted to add in that One Drop is another company that has a service that offers a subscription for unlimited test strips. You have to buy their meter (I think it’s like $80), but then you can subscribe and get UNLIMITED strips for $39.95/month or a whole YEAR of unlimited strips for $400. My friend started using this program a month ago and he really likes it so far. So while it’s still frustrating, you do have options. The type 1 community is a great resource for figuring out how to get good deals! Here is the One Drop site: https://start.onedrop.today/collections/test-strips-subscription-plans
And finally, as for being scared about not feeling extreme highs and lows…I was in a very similar boat. I lived alone at diagnosis, and was very afraid. I highly recommend you check in to getting a continuous glucose monitor (CGM). One of the most common brands (and the one I have) is Dexcom. I was a little resistant at first, but it has given me and my family so much peace of mind and made a huge difference for my ability to not hit those extreme highs and lows. While I originally hated the idea of having a device on me at all times, it really doesn’t bother me. It’s fairly small, and I stick it on the back of my arm where it’s barely noticeable. And it sends me my blood glucose reading to my phone every 5 minutes. It’s amazing. It may be kind of expensive, depending on your insurance…but it is definitely worth asking your doctor about.
I wish you well. I know it’s hard to believe in this moment, but you will conquer this. You will make it through. Give yourself some grace as you get there.