Ouch! That had to hurt…
Honestly, every single diabetic has those moments of “this sucks and I’ll never figure it out.” Those days are awful. I can think of at least 3 times in the past two weeks where I said out loud this just sucks and makes no sense and is trying to drive me insane.
That said, you can figure it out. I was diagnosed at age 7, and at that time, the answer to every low was drink lots of Sunny D and the answer to every high was “get better control.”
Hormones are horrible on blood sugar control. It will be really hard to stay tightly controlled for probably another 5 years or so for you. It’s not your fault. And it will get better/easier the longer you have it.
Eventually, you start to understand what your body tells you before you get too far out of control. Tired means do a blood test. Hungry means do a blood test. Mad as heck means do a blood test. Cut your finger accidentally? May as well do a blood test with it.
I was in debate in high school and worked after school once I was old enough. I just carried a bigger bag with me everywhere and made sure I had sugary snacks and vending machine money at all times.
Get on an insulin pump if you can. It will allow you more control over the insulin you take and the dosing. It should help with things like rehearsing for 12 hours without a break and cramming for exams so long you are awake well past normal bedtime.
And stay away from using that curling iron for anything that isn’t curling hair! Those will take forever to heal, which will just make it harder to control your numbers.
And yeah, I know you’ve heard that from about a thousand other people by now, but I felt the need to say it, too. Besides, there are much more fashionable ways to tell the world you are diabetic. I have a whole collection of diabetic alert bracelets, one to match every outfit I own. Try that next time. Make a constructive statement out of your frustration. Embrace the hurt and anger and then let it go. You will get through this. You are not alone.