Tori I completely understand. Sometimes it just feels like no one gets it! And I hate those days when you do everything as well as you can and your numbers just DON’T WORK. It just feels so pointless! And yes, I know that feeling of being a human pincushion. Ugh. It feels absolutely endless and there are times when it’s overwhelming.
It’s important to remember that no matter what, you’re not letting ANYONE down. Your parents and doctors want your numbers to be better because they care about you and want you to be healthy, but even they don’t know how hard it is to do what you do every day. Never forget that YOU are enough, whether or not your numbers are perfect.
T1 can hold you back sometimes. That’s just the way of it. I want to say “don’t let it stop you”, but I know as well as you do that you’re not “letting” it do anything. It just IS. And that really sucks. But you’re a warrior, and I know you can overcome this stupid disease even when you don’t feel able to.
I’m always here if you need to talk. You’re so brave. Never forget that.