coping with having t1 has and is always a struggle for me. kids didn’t understand and would pick on me and tell me to stay away because it was ‘contadious’. someone had told me that people only were like that because they fear what they don’t know. i struggle with checking my sugars and giving insulin and i just feel like a push pin cushion and some days it’s harder than others, my sugars are high even when i do what i am suppose to. i feel like i’m letting my family and doctors down and it’s so very unfair how i am the only one with it. i’ve been living with it for 7 years now and i still just feel like everyday all i’m doing is drowning in needles. i feel like t1 is holding me back from doing so many things that i want and it’s holdig other people back from wanting to do things with me, it’s a constant fight that i’m pretty sick of.
Tori I completely understand. Sometimes it just feels like no one gets it! And I hate those days when you do everything as well as you can and your numbers just DON’T WORK. It just feels so pointless! And yes, I know that feeling of being a human pincushion. Ugh. It feels absolutely endless and there are times when it’s overwhelming.
It’s important to remember that no matter what, you’re not letting ANYONE down. Your parents and doctors want your numbers to be better because they care about you and want you to be healthy, but even they don’t know how hard it is to do what you do every day. Never forget that YOU are enough, whether or not your numbers are perfect.
T1 can hold you back sometimes. That’s just the way of it. I want to say “don’t let it stop you”, but I know as well as you do that you’re not “letting” it do anything. It just IS. And that really sucks. But you’re a warrior, and I know you can overcome this stupid disease even when you don’t feel able to.
I’m always here if you need to talk. You’re so brave. Never forget that.